I was not supposed to

I was not supposed to, but i am, i'm damaged. Yesterday i realized. And i dont know how i got to this.
I'm not self-confident, i'm not open, i'm not reliable, i'm not strong, i'm not brave, i'm not charming, i'm not cautious, i'm not optimist.
But i'm cheerful, talkative, quarrelsome, naive, bad-tempered, lazy, stubborn, moody, friendly, gullible, absent, forgetful, modest, enthusiastic and freckly.